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GOSH DANGIT!
I just lost my entire ACQUIRE THE FIRE entry! GAYYYYYYYYY. :[
Now I no longer feel like retyping it. Maybe tomorow morning.
ExitTheMoonlight (9:53:22 PM): my heart is no longer breaking ABOUT Brandon, now it's breaking FOR him. xdripyourrubyred (9:53:33 PM): whawha?? ExitTheMoonlight (9:53:35 PM): and it has nothing to do with me liking him. xdripyourrubyred (9:54:08 PM): explain por favor ExitTheMoonlight (9:58:53 PM): on the way home from atf on the bus he and luke were talking about how brandon should go to the honor academy next year (with me, because I AM going), and about how it would be really good for him, and brandon would be all. I really would like to go but it's money thats the issue...and how he doesn't like to accept money from people because it's like its charity..because well. hes poor, just like us....and he just doesn't like to take money from people, and they got into this huge long discussion about anything and everything...about how brandon really tries hard in school and he can't get better than a d and about his stepfather and his father...and I was listening to them (while I was supposed to be asleep...on BRANDONS PILLOW) and I just got so broken hearted for him. There is so much I don't know about him...and listening to him talk about how his dad just sent me over the edge. I almost started crying right then and there. and then I thought about how I haven't been a very good friend to him lately..with me liking him and all...I'm going to have to give him a hug tomorow, and tell him I'm sorry for how I've been and that I want to talk to him one on one no strings attached, and that I want to pray with him. I don't know what happened. I'm so brokenhearted over this. xdripyourrubyred (9:59:58 PM): aww, xdripyourrubyred (10:00:12 PM): you're just too good of a friend, dear ExitTheMoonlight (10:00:18 PM): thanks. xdripyourrubyred (10:00:50 PM): dont thank me, thank yourself. ExitTheMoonlight (10:00:58 PM): hehe
Yeah so I'm feeling really broken hearted for him. And I feel like such a bad friend. I just realized I never once took the time to actually get to know him. I didn't know barely anything about him. I feel so terrible about it. So today I apologized to him, because I've been very angry and bitter at him for no reason other than I like him a lot, and the feelings aren't returned (at least I don't think they are), and that is NO reason at all to be bitter twards someone. So yeah, he accepted the apology but I don't think he had any clue as to what was going on. I'm going to ask Brandon if he wants to talk to me...because..I just feel terrrible.
Anywho. SUPER TIRED.
NIGHT
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